On Disparaging the Individual

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WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?!?

Today’s not about love, or harmony, or togetherness, or tolerance.  Today’s all about when it’s okay to get pissed off.  It’s all about when to call someone out, when to be indignant, when to be angry because a line has been crossed.

Oooh,somebody crossed that line today, et voila!  Out come my fangs, the hissing, the retort, the accusation, the intolerance, ready to pounce and have a good ol’ fashioned catfight.

I have a rule that I truly try to observe, and that is to be tolerant when people who do not understand basic social behavior stick their big fat mouths and their ugly comments in my face or worse, ignore the warnings to stop where they are and back off.  Everyone has limits and for me it is this:

Direct and personal attacks on internet postings (Oh, shut up asshole, you’re whining! or the single word, Waaaah!) are like a red cape to a big bull and ooh, baby, I got horns.

I actually had to post this photo as the background on my Facebook profile:

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That’s right, ZERO bullshit tolerance.

I don’t usually respond to negative, churlish bombast.  I dislike it when I feel people’s disregard for the feelings of others or my own feelings for that matter, and do the one thing I hate most; make an unreasonable, unwarranted attack on a person’s character.

I might have a disagreement with someone but if that person is a private individual (John Smith as opposed to, say, Donald Trump) then I do not disparage the individual.  A person is allowed to be what they are but just because they are in reality an asshole, I’m usually not one to start name-calling, no matter what they say.  A public person?  Fair game.

Unless, of course, an individual fucks with me first.  Then, out come the fangs, but only when they don’t take the hint and back off.

Even then, I dislike having had the experience at all, but I will be damned if I let a socially backward, irresponsible fuckwad drag me into the mud.

AAAAAND, then it happens.

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I AM KITTY AND I WILL SCRATCH YOUR EYES OUT!

When we are egged on, a lot of things can make us snap the ol’ noodle and put on the Wolverine knife-gloves.  But when you’re bipolar, there are times when irritation levels soar and you have to be extra careful not to let the attack cat out.  Agitation, irritation, an increased argumentative attitude, bitchiness, growling, grumbling; all of these things happen in an instant and it’s harder than you would think to get the cat back in the bag once you’ve let him out.

We learn in Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) and in Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) to learn centering exercises that lessen the negativity and change your focus so that you’re able to move on from the anger and get your logic centers get back in business.  It’s a fundamental biological element of being human that the fight or flight triggers go off when someone verbally, ignorantly attack you.  You get ready to do one or the other.

But the internet allows for something really terrible: the fighting words set off the triggers but the attacker is not standing in front of you.  You can’t choose to physically attack (self-preservation against perceived enemies that threaten you) and you can’t really take flight because the internet is everywhere.  And we have become dependent on it socially, scientifically and in almost every single part of our lives.

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Yeah, Come At Me, Bro

I am no chicken.  I don’t have to prove myself to anyone.  I don’t require affirmation or agreement.  I don’t need someone’s eternal love, don’t need acceptance or even good wishes.

But the line that this person crossed was not his personally directed insult, it was when he suggested that I was in need of taking my ‘medication’ because I was ‘crazy’.

That’s where this person crossed that line.  Does he think that everyone that he disagrees with allows him to make personally directed scornful remarks?  Does he think that those with a need for ‘medication’ are lesser beings?  Does he take pleasure in mocking people from his self-satisfied, snarky little internet throne?

Who told him that it’s okay to foster the notion that those who ‘need to be medicated’ are to be derided and put down, personally, publicly or otherwise?  His suggestion that I ‘take my medication’ just goes to show the negative attitude and childish expression of how people perceive the necessity to ‘take medication’.

I swore when I started this blog that I would learn to be an advocate for those like me who make every effort to see the world from a positive and robust point of view.  I intend to keep my oath.  I intend to make every effort to stop these kinds of attitudes from proliferating, this kind of slur being thought of as acceptable, and in this case I break from my general rule of internet respect and etiquette and deliver a message to those who use this language to put down others with this kind of negative horse crap:

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That’s right, asshole.  Deal with it.

And now, back to the thing I try so hard to follow now that the internet butthead needs to be removed from my brain:

 

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It’s never easy to try for betterment.  If it were easy, we’d all be wonderful.  But we ain’t, so I promise to keep trying and not name-call and thereby bring myself down in the eyes of the world in the process.

 

 

 

 

Meet Four Men Who Shine

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Being grateful isn’t always easy.  Sometimes I want to rail at people, sometimes I am loving and concerned. Sometimes the beast, sometimes the prince.

But being bipolar isn’t a simple state of existence.  At times I wonder what it is about my interactions with others that drives people away.  I feel that most see me as an oddity or worse, believe I am completely, totally nuts which, I might add, may in fact have a ring of truth to it.

You see, I am by nature a hyper-velocity individual, an Energizer Bunny at supersonic speed, who bounces from deep, philosophical and meaningful discussion to rude but funny and sick jokes at a finger snap. When I am asked if I am always like this, my most frequent answer is, “I only have two speeds: 3000 MPH, or unconscious.”  It seems to have always been this way.

My creativity is bound up in a whirlwind.  I can unleash this creativity, but at not too fast a pace because the velocity of my creative process scares other people.

Those few who have seen me tackle a problem know that when it comes to resolving one, I am an absolute pit-bull.  I don’t let anything rest.  For example, I will turn my house upside-down to get a single decent photo good enough to use and of which I approve.  I spend 16-hour days working on a single poem for, if a poem is to be anything worth reading, it takes that long to get me to the point of ceasing to edit the damn thing.

But there are benefits of living in the vortex I create around me.

First on that list of benefits is that, I am sad to say, the tornado that surrounds me weeds out people who can’t keep up with me.  Most people misunderstand my oddness and can’t take the intensity, and I don’t mean that as a disparaging opinion of them, or of me.  As I have stated in a personal profile, some find me an acquired taste that can be sampled only in small doses.

Fair enough.  I agree with that opinion, or, rather, accept it, since there are so many people who feel that way.    And some of them simply dislike me, and find me impossible to tolerate and so promptly run as fast as they can in the other direction.

At least they’re not having a problem with their decision-making process.  I envy them.

Some, well, some are baffled by my gyrations; they see a person who can’t slow down or shut off the flow.  Perhaps they have never met anyone quite as unusual or outspoken and find me an oddity in a good way; someone who lives in a world he’s made so wound up and so tight he could at any minute fly apart in an astounding explosion but somehow manages to hang on by the skin of his teeth and sheer force of will.

Someone that can do what they say they can do and then does it if at all humanly possible to do so.

Someone that doesn’t lie.

Someone with a good heart.

Someone who needs to get these thoughts and express them, get them out of his head and communicate them to those around him, someone hoping to be understood, hoping for acceptance, someone who is in the end a human who lives with his doubts, his fears, his failings, his frailty.

It is amazing in all of this hyper-velocity, hyperbolic, supersonic existence of mine, there are people who manage to understand me and stand with me, or at least not run from me so fast all I can see is a blur.

Let me introduce a few of the guys, those who, in spite of it all, have stuck around. Four men who shine, who try to understand me and appreciate me for who I am and, as a result, are priceless to me.

I’ll be brief (anyone that knows me knows being ‘brief’ for me is of course quite impossible!).  These are some of the special men in my life.  There are other people who I love deeply, too, and who I will introduce some other time but these four are men that bring a wellspring of gratitude and it flows from me to them and to the world.

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Jose, whose friendship is one of the most surprising and most cherished.  When I thought no one would ever want to be near me and was feeling completely out of it, he befriended me and made me see that even though my bipolar disorder is a challenge, there are those in the world who see me as the man I really try to be, a good man with a good heart.  He is someone who became a guide and brought me further into the light of day.  He is profoundly quiet, perplexing, and one of the most wonderful men I know. Jose! Te amo mi amigo!

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Fundi, who is a poet, writer, singer, dancer, historian, activist and one of the men in my life who shines like a nova.  Our discourse is amazing and our communication so valuable to me!  He is not only a treasure to me but to many others who look for authenticity in the world because baby, he is the real deal.  He excites my mind, makes me laugh, fills me with awe and brings out the dancing spirit within me.  Fundi! Nakupenda rafiki yangu!  

 

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Marino, who is many things all rolled up into a singular, gentle, intelligent and sweet human being with the heart of a lion and with a soul filled with delightful contradictions who is very, very special to me. (Marino, Portrait in blue jeans, from his first photo shoot with me.) Marino! Ti amo mio amico!

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My wonderful and supremely talented friend Michael who is a visual artist, a performer who inhabits a terrifyingly fun and incredibly – well, there’s no other word but astounding – alter-ego named Uta Schrecken (first row, right, Uta Feather, a poster I made; photo, Uta Schrecken Portrait No.1, middle row).  He is a remarkable painter (Fundi, me and other friends pictured in one of his oil paintings, bottom). He is someone so dear to me that to say I love and appreciate and ‘get’ him pales in the telling. Michael! Loves bunches!

These men have been in turns loving, frustrating, delightfully shocking, brilliant, crazy and irreplaceable as a result.  To say that I am grateful is completely lackluster in the saying of it.  The experience of them in my heart is a series of wonderful vignettes, a full and glorious pastiche of experiences that few people have the grace and the good sense to appreciate on every level.

I may live in the whirlwind, true, and bipolar disorder sometimes does its best to take from me all the goodness and love that I have and turn it to ashes, but the disorder is not me.  It is merely a chronic state of being that afflicts me in different ways.

Yet I am very humbled because luckily, I do have the grace and good sense to realize that without these men my life would be very, very different.  Each of them shine like a beacon to me.  I delight in them, understand and appreciate them and I know that without them I would simply not be the same man, the same being, that I am.

Whirlwind or vortex, tornado or energizer bunny, those states of being are just who I am, and I no longer apologize for who or what I am.  If I can have men in my life of this caliber, then I must be doing something profoundly right.

 

 

 

 

The Consequences of the Anti-Diplomat

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This week, Donald Trump made phone calls to many heads of state in many countries with three being of peculiar and particular note: a call to the president of Pakistan who promptly read a transcript of the call to reporters and reacted with incredulity and weirdly, a call to British prime minister Theresa May to ‘stop by if you’re in the U.S.’.  Jeez.

But the most insane of these calls may well be the ‘congratulatory’ call to Tsai Ing-Wen, President of Taiwan, without consultation regarding protocol.  This is not good; presidents who are not yet sworn into office do not upon becoming a president-elect begin dictating policy and making contact with world leaders.  We still have people who were previously elected or appointed doing their jobs until the imposition of a new administration.

Trump has tipped his hand.  He has showed his incompetence in foreign diplomacy before he has even begun his job.  Is this behavior done to gain street cred?

Trump has achieved something few presidents in history have done: he’s become the greatest diplomatic mega-failure the world has seen since Neville Chamberlain claimed to broker peace with the Third Reich.

Never mind that he refused to heed examples of standard protocol in our relations with the Chinese, he’s also managed to make it a dangerous situation.  Perhaps a discussion with John Kerry or even with Hillary Clinton would have been advisable?

I wonder if he is listening only to that rabid mess he calls a transition team and ignoring those with experience who would point him in the right direction and ask him to wait to make those calls, since he is not sworn in, and that would be advice best heeded. Trump, however, does not like being advised.

I wonder if he is simply showing that he does not care for the welfare of his fellow citizens or the Taiwanese people.  I wonder if this is his way of attempting to bully the Chinese.  It seems that no government or head of state is above being bullied.

With additional Chinese presence in the Sea of Japan making both Japan and the United States quite uncomfortable, he’s managed to stir that hornet’s nest into frenzy.  The expected response from the Chinese government is going to be very much the ‘red cape’ to his ‘bull’, if you will.  And his retort will just exacerbate the situation, to be sure.

Or is it his egomaniacal, self-centric myopia and disregard for all things sane?  Are these calls merely the first in a long line of diplomatic hip-shooting?  Will he leave the United States wondering how we can repair all the damage he has managed to do to our international friends once we (hopefully) regain our collective balance and rid ourselves of this demagogue?

We’re left with a terrible sense here in America that our allies and trading partners are never going to trust U.S. voters to do the right thing and find a worthy candidate to place into office.  They may be justified in that opinion based on this fiasco of electing someone so unqualified as Donald Trump.

Certainly the Russian government which seems to have had a hand in his election via interfering with voters via hacks and directed disinformation had a great belly laugh.  It must amuse them to see that with a little electronic ingenuity and some hilarious hijinks they brought to power and prominence someone that desensitized voters would find undeniably attractive and would not hesitate to follow.  They have placed a new puppet in our most sacred institution, our Presidency.

They helped to place someone in the Presidency, someone that commands armies, someone with the ability to launch nuclear warheads.  Let that sink into your brain.

If there’s a well-documented Russian skill it is the manipulation of masses of ‘serfs’ to establish a repressive government and set up a puppet to rule them.  They’re undisputed masters of that game.

They know something that U.S. voters do not: those voters are governed by manipulators, and largely only react.  They do not think of the long-term effects or and consequences of their actions.

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Is this all that the average U.S. citizens and voters think is ‘newsworthy’?

The Trump administration considers educated persons (and most especially those that teach) to be a danger to the facade that it is trying to foil.  It is a tactic straight out of the Fascist Playbook: those that cannot see the actions of the oppressor cannot act in unity against them.

Oppressors delight in making intellectuals and the press targets for repression for showing their actions to be propaganda, which is their tool to ensure enslavement through the use of misdirected violence and scapegoating.

Trump fights hard against recounting votes.  He knows he lost the popular vote.  By working to prevent those recounts he hope continued use of distraction will cement him into the Presidency before the popular vote is tallied and the margin of Hillary Clinton’s win forces the Electoral College to deny him his throne.

Trump fights hard to prevent the light of scrutiny illuminating his installation of the super-rich as the governing body.  He uses tweets, lies, more misinformation, more bluster and self-aggrandized behavior to make a smoke screen that hides his real agenda.

The right would force us to live under a government run by the rich, white ‘colonial’ few that espouse and actively use twisted values and corrupted morals to their advantage; after all, they want to control the masses, not enlighten them as to how they are controlled.

Teachers, intellectuals and the press are the first to be attacked.  This is already underway with the publishing of lists that mention names of those professors that ‘teach only left wing values’.

The attacks and lies desensitize those citizens they wish to suppress.  With a subdued press who marginalizes the actions of the right, and with universities and intellectuals put on notice or actively repressed and threatened comes the rest of the game plan.

Next, those they consider to be ‘weak’, such as women, or ‘aberrations’ such as the disabled, LGBTQ, environmentalists and unions, are marginalized and forced into submission not only by the ‘ruling class’ but also by those they have tricked into ‘their way of thinking’.

Those that they consider fundamentally flawed and subhuman are the preferred groups that the misinformed and fired-up mob chooses to openly and violently attack first. After a successful and thorough dehumanization effort show effectiveness, a bamboozled public is only too happy to oblige and act out disturbingly violent behaviors without restraint.

The ‘ruling class’ wants to be the ones to promote and place in positions of power those that are enriched by the suffering of others, as they themselves are enriched.  They know how to wring every bit of a person’s sweat and toil from them and pay nothing for it.  They will deny them food, healthcare, human rights, the rule of law and education.  This is how it all begins the slide into fascism and then to the atrocity that is genocide.

Will our society be handed to those who don’t care how high the pile of bodies becomes because, after all, they know there are always more ‘serfs’ to dispose of the mess they leave behind?

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Enrichment by the suffering of others and the refusal to see people as ‘human’ is a well-known, tried and true method of repression. 

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Bread lines: will they be making a return thanks to gutting food programs in favor of continued enrichment of the 1%?

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When your human rights are thrown in the trash, how will you respond?

I cannot and will not subscribe to their methodology, their greed and lies.  I cannot but believe that the human spirit will overcome their backwards thinking and attempt at repression and their dictatorial desires.  Those that reach for the stick with which to beat those they consider to be beneath them must be denied that stick.

They are monsters, make no mistake.  They are monsters.  We’ve seen these monsters before and have time and again paid the price to get rid of them with our blood and treasure.

Those of you who understand the course of history will undoubtedly be nervous and wary of the way the incoming Trump administration is shaping up.  Just a little research of his cabinet picks and other who inhabit his ‘bubble’, not to mention the incendiary effect Trump has on his ‘followers’ and the subsequent increase in violent hate crime, should make you aware of the severity of allowing someone like him the chance at the helm.  We must resist.

Let me leave you with an image of what we may well suffer under such a man and the society that allows him to not only exist, but to flourish.

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A single, low-yield nuclear blast, the first and thankfully the last one of only two that mankind has used against civilians and military.  This photo shows what is now Peace Park in Hiroshima.  Will we all suffer this fate?  Who can say.  Without all of us disavowing and by unity preventing such possibilities, I seriously question whether or not we as a species can live on.  The alternative of accepting ignorance, xenophobia, exclusionism and hate is too terrible to contemplate.

My Normal Life: 12/2/2016

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Good @#$&*! Morning

 

I got up this morning at the magical time of 4:06 A.M.  Thanks to a horrible dream I had about my ex-husband, I woke up not in the best frame of mind.  In fact, I swore aloud before I even swung my feet to the floor.  My poor kitty Hercules didn’t like it much and made sure to put his butt right in front of my face in protest.

Swearing aloud at 4:06 A.M. is not a good thing.  It happens, but it usually means I am not ‘centered’; as for this morning, I think it was more a ‘what did you eat before you went to bed?’ kind of thing.  But it’s still troubling to wake up to negativity of any kind, really.  At least it is until after the first two cups of coffee; then I can handle most things.  However, before Facebooking, three cups of coffee are in order just to handle it.

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I’m listening to Roxy Music’s Avalon, which has become a morning favorite.  My english muffin with peanut butter (which I regularly share with Hercules, and call him with the baby-speak greeting, “Come on, sveetie, here’s yapenudbudda!”) was done, third cup of coffee rapidly cooling off, and the first thing I did was go directly to the Facebook group, Donald Trump Is Not My President, and found a link to the presidential inauguration protest information, and clicked GOING.

Oh, hell, yes.  Going for certain.  Just have to do some pre-inaugural chores, like make a fantastic sign, plan the drive there, remember that day to pack a picnic lunch, and off we go.

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Maybe I will use this for the sign along with the caption Come at me, bro.  Probably not, but nice to think about.

You know, I feel bad for friends of mine that suffer from the fear of the coming backward, right-wing, extremist, rabidly pro-1%, anti-LGBTQ assholes we’re going to encounter in this administration.  Already I feel it, the nasty attitudes, the exclusion, the directed hatred, the low-down disgust for those of us that will stand there and howl our dissent, and I’m going to have to grow a little bit thicker skin to stand there and take it, but I will take it.  I will PROTEST in the real tradition of American spirit.

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I must remember to use these skills abundantly, often and with purpose

Enough politicking for now.

I’m going to spend today preparing for laundry.  Cleaning.  Playing the piano for at least three hours (and adding some new material).  Most of all, I am going to spend some time for what I call ‘spa day’, where I go from top of head to tip of toes examining, moisturizing, cream-applying, shaving and beard trim – all the fun stuff that I need to take care of to be ‘handsome’.

That should keep me occupied well into the next week.

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Trump: An Unwise Choice For Those In Need

A goal for which I strive is to be in Wise Mind.  In Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT), wise mind is described as, “that place where reasonable mind and emotion mind overlap. It is the integration of emotion mind and reasonable mind. Linehan states, “Wise mind is that part of each person that can know and experience truth. It is where the person knows something to be true or valid“.

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For those of us with Bipolar Disorder, being in Wise Mind is challenging to say the least; when you are confronted with cyclical negative thinking (when depressed) or exaggerated emotional highs (mania), the challenges are even more daunting.

In a recent meeting with my therapist I discussed my concerns regarding the 2016 election and its effect on those of us with mental health issues and concerns.  I was not surprised to hear that many of her clients had grave concerns as to what the future in a Trump presidency would bring; my own concerns were front and center.

I was not shocked to learn of the incredible numbers of people who were affected, I was saddened and outraged by it.

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What Trump has shown through both his policy statements and his personal statements is that he has little respect for people with mental illness. While he says he wants to help their families, he hasn’t said anything about actually helping patients with mental health concerns (other than through vague “reform”).

His apparent threat against another candidate to expose his wife’s mental health concerns is telling. As are his casual insults on Twitter using labels like “crazy” and “basketcase” — labels that clearly demonstrate a person out of touch with mainstream America — one where 1 in 5 people suffer from a mental illness.                                                                                             –  

With the possible repeal of the Affordable Care Act and the inevitable attacks on Medicare, Medicaid funding and Social Security, more than 20 million people could lose their much-needed insurance, with seniors and the disabled being badly hit by an uncaring, myopic administration.

Access to affordable medication would be reduced in favor of increased profits to drug manufacturers and their stockholders.

The ill-advised choices of cabinet member appointees made by the president-elect has caused a great deal of concern to all those in the healthcare community, patients and providers alike.  Another point of concern is the way that Trump views military veterans (many of whom have PTSD or other mental health issues), and whether or not there will continue to be mental health support for them.

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Considering his track record, we can expect not only verbal attacks and reprehensible mockery from the president-elect, we can expect every effort by his administration to defund our mental health providers.  At a time when there are more people than ever who need assistance we are faced with a clearly persistent culture of refusal to acknowledge this need as well as disinterest and, sadly, denial that the need exists.

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I have no real confidence that the incoming administration will do anything but gut the current system and have no pertinent and logical plan of action to replace it.  I have no confidence that our president-elect has anything but business interests in mind and will do what he can to ensure that profit rules the day and that caring about the mentally ill, our veterans and our seniors are a last-place concern for him.  He boasts so frequently of his almost super-human understanding of, well, basically everything, that hearing sense and truth from the man is at best farfetched.  This man is NOT in Wise Mind.

When it comes down to it, his claims of ‘understanding’ fall completely flat.  It’s worse when you consider that as American citizens we should never tolerate lies from those that lead us and yet the man who claimed victory in this election has no compunction about lying to anyone if it means his ‘win’.

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What we have is a failure not only to represent the interests of American citizens that require assistance, we have an incoming political culture of willful ignorance that feeds and promotes the interests of the wealthy and actively shames those with need.  How this new administration deals with our disabled, the mentally ill, homeless and most notably homeless veterans, the growing population of seniors — how they deal with this reality — is not clear, but what we see is a huge number of mental health care providers counseling those who are affected by the threat of being cut off from the care they need.

 

 

 

 

 

Funtime: TODAY I WILL…

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TODAY I WILL LEARN SOMETHING IMPORTANT

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TODAY I WILL GREET PEOPLE WITH ENTHUSIASM

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TODAY I WILL BE THANKFUL TO BE AN AMERICAN

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TODAY I WILL ‘BE A LION, NOT A MOWUSS’

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TODAY I WILL DO SOMETHING CONSTRUCTIVE

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TODAY I WILL APPRECIATE WHO I AM

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TODAY I WILL SHOW HOW I FEEL TO THOSE AROUND ME

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TODAY I WILL TREAT THOSE AROUND ME WITH KINDNESS

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TODAY I WILL WEAR SOMETHING THAT MAKES ME FEEL GREAT

AN ILLUSTRATED PERSONAL STAND WITH THE REAL AMERICA

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My Thoughts on What Makes America Truly Great – A DREAM

I went yesterday to my talk-therapy session.  I hadn’t been since the election and there was much to discuss.  So many negative things had happened: my perception of my relationships with people I thought I knew changed; the fear of attack, both verbal and physical, had overnight grown exponentially.

Most hideously illuminated were the people in my life that I had always considered supportive of me; people I thought decent, thoughtful and reasonable American voters who would turn toward reason instead believed and embraced an incredibly racist, xenophobic, homophobic and mentally unhinged incoming President, becoming by fiat fact-deniers, homophobes and racists, overt or clandestine.

They willingly and without consideration of their collective madness handed an incapable, trite and childish, ignorant, unintelligent and uncaring (not to mention an extremely dangerous and unstable) president-elect the codes to our nuclear arsenal and set him up as the incoming Commander-in-Chief of the Armed Forces of our nation.

As if there wasn’t enough to fear.

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Now, many might say this is unreasonable thinking on my part, that there are sufficient checks and balances within our system to prevent a knee-jerk reaction from the aforementioned unstable president-elect or may say, perhaps, that I am in fact fearing a thing that would probably never come to pass, and that there is no way our supposedly balanced government would allow its own citizens to come to harm.

Let’s review current events…

Our government is in fact intimidating of Native American citizens by using our ‘peacekeepers’ as if this was the year 1816, not the year 2016.  

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Trump’s threats against political dissent come from a president-elect who takes his ideology right out of a fascist Hitler-Mussolini-Franco playbook: 

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Trump puts avowed RACISTS, misogynists and KKK supporters into influential positions in his incoming administration:

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Trump is a man with a disproportionate and delusional view of his own achievements and abilities.  He is a braggart, a liar that time and again not only lied to the press but to all those people who supported him in their unthinking ignorance.  As a result they voted in a fascist, bigoted, arrogant, ignorant and completely unfit man into the most visible, important and critical position on the planet:  

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Trump actively threatens our free press and ignores the First Amendment of the Constitution; a man who threatens citizens by taking the position that we should be prosecuted for speaking our minds:

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An important quote from a REPUBLICAN President that was SANE.  Through his mouthpiece Kellyanne Conway, Trump threatened lawsuits against citizens who call him out (see above).

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Trump’s vice-presidential cohort is the most EXTREMIST, RELIGIOUSLY RADICALIZED, hate-filled, backward thinking man to hold the office since the Richard Nixon/Spiro Agnew era:

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Trump’s ideal of ‘Making America Great Again’ resulted in his handing the reins of the helm of what is arguably one of the most important cabinet offices, the Secretary of Education (a post whose aim is to guide the education of our most important resource, our children) to the most supremely unqualified person imaginable:

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WELL, THEN.  

Still think I am over-reacting, being unreasonably, ridiculously fearful over nothing?  Hmmmm?

Uh… I don’t think so.  I have every reason to be fearful, but I WILL NOT.

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Self-portrait addressing fear (above) and My Declaration, 2016 (below).

I WILL NOT BE SILENT.

I WILL NOT ALLOW INTIMIDATION TO FORCE ME INTO POLITICAL SUBMISSION.

I WILL SUPPORT THE SEPARATION OF CHURCH AND STATE.

I WILL NOT ALLOW ANYONE TO FORCE CHRISTIAN OR ANY OTHER RELIGIOUS ZEALOTRY UPON ME OR ANY AMERICAN.

I WILL CONFRONT HATE, RACISM, HOMOPHOBIA, XENOPHOBIA AND MISOGYNY WHEREVER IT REARS ITS UGLY HEAD.

I WILL OPPOSE THOSE WHO ACTIVELY, PASSIVELY OR BY DISPASSION EMBRACE OR ESPOUSE HATEFUL, DANGEROUS AND IGNORANT RHETORIC.

I WILL OPPOSE ANYONE THAT INITIATES VIOLENCE, INTIMIDATION AND HATE CRIME AGAINST ANYONE ELSE.

 I WILL OPPOSE THE EROSION OF MY CIVIL RIGHTS OR THE ATTEMPT TO SUPPRESS MY CONSTITUTIONAL RIGHTS OF FREE SPEECH AND THE FREEDOM TO PEACEABLY ASSEMBLE WITH OTHERS IN PROTEST OF INJUSTICE.

I WILL NOT ALLOW ANYONE TO TRAMPLE ON THE BLOOD OF THOSE WHO DIED FOR MY FREEDOMS NOR ALLOW THE DIRECTION OF OUR NATION TO EMBRACE TYRANNY.

I WILL RAISE MY VOICE AGAINST INJUSTICE AND TYRANNY, AGAINST OLIGARCHY AND AGAINST DICTATORSHIP.

I WILL NOT FEAR.

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